Page Four 'PF"RSPECT VE7SV . THEJFUNERAL ...By Jean Michael BEFORE the old woman died, she had told her husband how she wished her funeral. "They'll let my grandsons car- ry me, won't they, John?" she begged. The old man lowered his head so that she could not see the tears on his bony cheeks. He pressed lightly the hand that lay on the rumpled coverlet, but her wasted fingers were too feeble to respond to his. "I'll see to it, Anna," he promised. "I'll see they do what you want. Any- thing you want, anything that'll make you happy . . . and I won't forget nei- ther to water your violet plant." The dying woman answered with a smile in her eyes. Meanwhile, the doc- tor hovered around the bed, impa- tiently fingering a thermometer. He acted as if death were his special prov- ence, as if it were unseemly that the old should even want to bid sentimental farewells to a long well-spent life. He pushed aside the hand of the old man and felt the withered wrist of his pa- tient. Twisting his fingers, the old man watched mutely. He tried to ig- nore the doctor and spoke to his wife. "No, I'll remember to water the plant. . Don't you fret none. I'll keep it pretty. Why, I found two buds on it just this morning, but the doctor wouldn't let me show you . . . can't have no plants in here, he says . The old man felt avenged in the tell- ing of this petty affront and did not protest a new interruption. "I think we had better let in the rest of the relationship. The end's near," said the doctor as he opened the door to summon those waiting in the next room. His tears now sobs, the old man (this time however) did not seek to hide his face from that of his wife. 'And don't you fret none about Min- nie Gebhardt with her voice singing 'Abide With Me." I'll get Martha in- stead." Mutely she thanked him with her eyes, and he patted the nerveless hand again with his own shrunken fingers. WHEN Uncle Will, as the small town knew its only 'mortician,' heard the news of the death, he told his wife hap- pily, "It'll be a big funeral. Folks will sort of expect something special." He liked funerals, liked their show with even more enthusiasm than called for by the demands of his profession. "And too," Uncle Will continued, "she was married to my cousin John . . . all in the family you could say .. . His wife looked up from the meat she was frying on the old wood stove, "Maybe Will, you'd better close up your insurance office for a couple days. It might look sort of disrespectful of your own relative to do business with her laying out in the parlor. After all, this is kind of special." When his cousin came to discuss the burial, Will noticed with shock that the hands of the other were shaking, and that he walked bent over. Why, John looked an old man, and he wasn't a year over Will's own age. But he did not pity him. "Now don't you fret none, John," he said. "Just leave everything to me. I've got it all planned." The husband of the dead woman pro- tested, "Don't put yourself out, Will. Mother and me planned everything the way she wanted it before she went. We'll keep her at the house." Uncle Will nodded in agreement. He had not expected such an arrangement, but it suited him He would not have to clean the front room nor take off the furniture covers. "She liked the house," the visitor went on. "Why, come these last few years, whenever we'd go over to one of the children's for dinner, we would- n't be there twenty minutes, 'fore Mo-. ther would say, 'John, let's go home.' And nothing would satisfy her until we were home, though there weren't never nothing to do in the house. She just felt uneasy away from it. Me, I was different. I got out around more than she did, and I'd go down to the grain store and talk tO the fellows 'most every day." Uncle Will kept nodding agreement to the words of his cousin, but his at- tention was elsewhere, planning how to arrange the wreaths and where peo- ple should sit in the church. "She wanted to be in the corner of the room, Will. You can see the sun rise from the front window. She al- ways liked that." Uncle Will nodded again. "Don't you worry none. Leave everything to me. That's what I'm for. It's been hard on you, John, but we all got to go some- time. Even you and me." "I ain't worrying," the visitor re- peated. "I ain't even let myself cry "Don't you worry. Everything will be all right, John. You've a cross, but bear up under it." A,bedraggled black crepe bow hung on the door of the small frame house. The old man tried to straighten the knot, but the brisk autumn wind de- fied him, pulling at the ribbon ends. His fingers soon grew numb from the cold, and as he saw that he was getting no place, he unlocked the door and en- tered. The house did not greet him; it was lonely, lonelier to him since he knew She was there, beyond the sound of his voice. The old man suddenly wished for people to talk to, though, at the same time, he knew that conversa- tion would have lagged or have seemed indecently trivial. He was frightened, because he was alone; and he was frightened, because She was alone. He spoke timidly to the body in the coffin, but he knew it would not answer, could not answer. The old man was resentful that peo- Kemincdep il6 74e ) t$t "Judge not lest ye be judged" were sounds alone When the idiot girl grinned wide as deaf as stone. Your father was less conspicuous than dew When the idiot mother, mouthing her fingers, grew. A goat was tethered where stands the Catholic Church When the Neanderthal girl walked past with a lurch. On the site of the Federal Bank, a brooklet flows Where the idiot girl sits down to count her toes. From the roots of the daisies you gather, shake her dust well. Whose mother's mother she is, I can not tell. She dropped the way that frozen sparrows fall. The nine men hung their arrows on the wall. -Naomi Gilpatrick even those labeled City and State, though all had spent their lives in the same small town. The husband of the dead woman sat in a rocking chair, his back to the body. From time to time, he had to rise, shake hands distraitly with some visitor. Then he would sit down again and rock back and forth. "She wanted to be in the corner," he worried, "but Will and Bertha decided that it would look nicer to people the way sh is now. But she did want to be in the corner, where the violet plant is now." His chair faced the east window, but the old man could not see the night for the glass reflected the lights of the room and the bier behind him. In the adjoining room relatives were reading the papers, knitting, talking. A grand- son left their group, He though how like a wake the affair seemed, and he idly thought of lighting a candle for his grandmother's repose. He knew, however, that the staunch German- Lutheran souls of his strange relatives would not appreciate the comparison, and that his grandmother would have considered herself insulted by such a romish act. He did not mourn his grandmother but wished only to show respect for the grief of his father. The young fellow had seen his grandmother only rarely at family reunions, where all affection can be no more than show. Uncle Will noticed the grandson. "You're Carl's son, aren't you? Well, well. "The boy nodded and wondered just how close a relationship was the old man. It was safe to guess him a blood kin. Everyone in the small town was related, if only distantly, to every- one else. "It's funny," thought the grandson," that all these antique rela- tives of mine look old, not in their faces so much as in their frames. Their clothes seem to bag all over and hang as if from a clothes horse, and their necks seem shriveledin those too big collars." "So you're in college ..." Uncle Will said to the grandson. "Just think of that, will you! . . . I went to college once myself" "Did you?" said the boy. "That's nice." "Yes," continued the old man, his hand now on the shoulder of his vic- tim, "I went to college, heh, the only real school there is, The College of Hard Knocks." The boy blinked. He didn't know whether to laugh, to be serious, to es- cape, or what . . . He had never come across such a person before. "Trust family reunions ..." he thought. "Yes, Hard Knocks," Uncle Will re- peated. "I've been graduating for the last fifty years. And do you know what I've been studying, making a life wo of it . . . fence corners!" The boy was certain now that the old man was crazy. The whole thing was unreal, macabre. Gossiping rela- tives, the collin and the sultry scent of hothouse flowers, the husband of the dead woman rocking .back and forth, staring at the reflection of her bier in the window. And now this queer old man talking about fence corners. He felt he would wake up from this night- mare any minute. But the old man was real and continued. "Yes, fence corners. You see a lot of life, learn a lot of morals in fence cor- ners. You know what fence corners are . . . fences come together there and they separate there too. Just the way people meet and leave in life. Don't laugh now, and don't tell yourself, 'The old man's crazy!' "The boy flushed slightly. He had been thinking just that. Uncle Will noticed his heightened color. "Uh huh. Hit the spot, didn't I? No, (Continued on Page Ten) w since Mother . . . went. I just want everything to be the way she wanted it. It don't help none to cry." Will put his hand on the shoulder of the other, "Maybe, it's even a bless- ing. She was poorly this last summer. Heat sort of gets the old folks." "Mother wasn't old. She was two years younger than me, seventy-eight last May." "That's right," said Will. "I'm sev- enty-nine myself. I wasn't thinking. 'Old' is somebody like Aunt Mag. Why, she's ninety-one ,if she's a day. The other continued, "I'm just as glad it's this way, for her sake. She had her mind 'til the end and didn't suffer no pain. I couldn't of stood it if I had to go afore Mother. She'd of been lost without me. Why, I even had to light the kerosene stove every day for her. I got it thirty-two years ago, but she never got over her distrust of the think. Mother always liked her wood stove best. And as for talking about getting a gas stove . . . She wouldn't hear of it." Uncle Will pulled out a huge gold watch, looked at the time. He replaced the watch in his vest pocket, careful to drape the heavy chain in full view across his middle. "Before you leave, John, just stop worrying. You can forget about the details. We'll fix everything so folks like it. Me and Bertha will hndle everything." "You'll fix it the way Mother wants it, Will?" ple would come to mourn, could speak their pieces and leave, resuming con- versations of war, babies, and politics. "Don't they realize," he though, "what it means to have fifty-six years of your life taken. And I knew her longer too. She was as pretty seventy-two years ago with pigtails as she is now. Not a bit prettier." But he realized he was dreaming and tried to escape such con- solation. He had better eat. He heated some boiled potatoes on the kerosene stove and then went down the narrow steps to get some milk in the cellar. it was no use. Everything he saw bore some connotation of her, the stove, the chairs, the kitchen table. Memory cannot purge itself. He drank the milk in the cellar. There was no sense in carrying upstairs the thick glass tumbler. He would be alone, eating either there or in the dark cool of the basement. It did not matter. The foodbtasted flat. UNCLE WILL stood in the arch of the transformed parlor. Flowers filled the corners of the room, and their odors were stifling. To one side was placed the casket, heaped with wreaths. As the mourners entered, the undertaker would lean forward, tap them on the shoulder and point in hushed silence to a bronze writing stand beside him. A sign on the stand above an open book read, "Kindly sign the register." The visitors would comply, clutching a pen which might have been borrowed from the post office, so scratchily did it write. They carefully filled out all columns,