S U 0 0 9 0 0 4B - April 16,2012 S rt ofd The Michigan Daily - michigandaily.com One Last Season Chronicling the senior years of Stuart Douglass and Alex Hunt Steven Braid Daily Sports Writer 6 : -vY~ : _ ae, .. iii i caw mk -r _.>_ Sitting on the bleachers inside an empty Cliff Keen Arenaon a gloomy afternoon in mid-November, Alex Hunt scanned a photo that epitomizes pure joy. The image is offer, atthe age of 16, wearing a huge smile across her face while she holds a medal draped around her neck. It was taken after her club volleyball team won the state cham- pionship to qualify for nationals - an eternity ago. These weren't better or worse times, just different. "Good feelings, definitely good feelings," Alex said, turningthe photo over in her hands. Eyes fixated on the photo, she stopped her-- self, lost for words. "These are just good memories; it was just a lot of fun. God, it's so funny looking back at these - I was really skinny." Just weeks before her competitive volley- balls days would end, she stared at what her career had been. It all seemed so surreal now. "It felt like there never was an end to volley- ball. Looking at this photo, at this point, I had six years of volleyball left. It's weird to think about it because now I only have less than two weeks left." Six years earlier, it all seemed endless: the nonstop workouts, endless traveling for club- volleyball tournaments and continual college recruiting trips. But here she sat, alone on the bleachers with justfour games left in the regu- lar season, facingthe twilight of her career. A month later, in the middle of Decem- ber, Stuart Douglass sat inside the Stephen Ross Academic Center feeling grateful for his health. The previous night, he received a text message from a friend and old training part- ner who had just suffered a career-endingACL injury. "Things can just happen in a heartbeat that you can never expect, and it can change your career," he said. "It definitely makes you appreciate your time. You know, I haven't had the games or the success that I wanted so far this year, but those types of things kind of put a different perspective on it and it makes you appreciate all the games you play. "It kind of puts more emotion into counting down the games until it's all over." Alex and Stuart are far from alone. One hun- dred and eleven athletes had the word "senior" printed alongside their name on a Michigan varsity roster this past year. Most will gradu- ate in May and won't play their sport profes- sionally and might never play it again. This is the end for all of them - if not their athletic careers, then at least their amateur careers - and that alone makes for an emotional year. The Michigan Daily spent the last year with Douglass and Hunt, chronicling whatcould be their final seasons. BEGINNING OF THE END This was the beginning of the end. Alex Hunt knew this. In four quick months, her career would be over. And yet, in the middle of August, she yearned for the start of the upcoming vol- leyball season. She was anxious to get back to competition. As she prepared for her senior year and her final season asa Michigan Wolverine, Alex had made up her mind that there would be no next level for her, no new organization to rep- resent and no new teammates to play along- side. She seemed at ease with her decision - almost as if she realized that her illustrious career was serendipitous, that she happened upon this sport by pure accident. "To be honest, I kind of got peer-pressured into playing," Alex said, laughing. "It's funny that I even remember this, but in third grade there was a sign-up sheet that went around for the (volleyball) teams for the following year. I remember that I was the only girl in my entire grade that didn't sign up just because I had no interest in playingsports at all - it wasn't my thing. But then I ended up playing the next year just because everyone else did and I ended up just falling in love with the game." If being introduced to volleyball happened by chance, becoming a star did not. Deter- mined to excel, Alex worked hard to continu- ally improve. She spent countless hours with her dad in their garage to-develop her serve and other parts of her game. "I remember hating going out there so much," Alex said with a chuckle. "It would be freezingcold - I would be bundled up and would still practice." Alex has sacrificed a lot, both socially and academically, for her volleyball career. She was driven by incentive. "I think my ultimate goal was to go to col- lege, get college paid for, and go to a school that I probably wouldn't be able to get into academically." Alex recognized that this was the choice she made, and she's extremely proud of her volleyball career - and rightfully so. Entering her senior year, she'd achieved a long list of accomplishments: MVP of the USA Junior Olympic Girls' Volleyball Champion- ship 16-year-old National Division in 2006, gold medal at the NORCECA Girls Youth Continental Championship in 2006, two-time first team all-state selection in high school, unanimous selection to the All-Big Ten Freshman team in 2008, selection to the U.S. Women's Junior National Team in 2009, and an AVCA Third Team All-American selection as a junior in 2010. Her namels also scattered across Michigan's record books. She's appreciative of the opportunities the sport has provided her, including a chance to play overseas when her collegiate career ends - if she wants to. It's a tempting offer., Undoubtedly, she could make an impact for several professional volleyball teams over- seas. It's a great opportunity, which is why it was surprising when she voiced the next three words to me without even the slightest bit of hesitation: "This is it." It could have been the beginning of the end. Stuart hoped differently. But in early October, one week before full- team practices started, Stuart took a seat in a study room on the second floor inside the Ross Academic Center, but he was not thinking about his future. Playing professionally, a pos- sible end to his career, job searching - these were the furthest thoughts from his mind. "I haven't really thought about the end at all. I just really want time to speed up so we can get practices started, and I want time to speed up so we can get the games started." Even with the departure of guard Darius Morris to the NBA, the preseason workouts provided an encouraging sign for Stuart. He was excited, almost edgy, to get onto the court. His senior season, he thought, was his time to shine, his time to lead. Yes, as a junior and with the team lack- ing seniors, Stuart was forced into leadership responsibilities last year: He assumed a cap- tain position, a role he wasn't yet comfortable with. But with another year of experience under his belt, he was loose. He was enthusi- astic about the chance to help the incoming freshman acclimate to Michigan. "The pressure is off, more so than it has been in other years. I'm just mentally relaxed." Stuart received a Fisher Price basketball hoop for Christmas as a youngster. Several years later, before he became a teenager, he told his parents that he wanted to play col- legiate basketball. They chuckled, but he was serious. Whereas most athletes play multiple sports in junior high school and in high school, espe- cially at small schools, Stuart decided early-on that he was going to devote all of his time to basketball. He stopped playing other sports competitively during the sixth grade. "I loved baseball, and I still love playing it whenever I can, but I didn't want to play any- more because I just wanted to focus on basket- ball. But I never really looked back and I never regretted it at all." His family moved from Cicero, Ind. to Car- mel, Ind. just weeks before his sophomore year in high school, in large part to give Stu- art more basketball exposure. It was a painful experience - moving from a tight-knit town to a large Indianapolis suburb - but Stuart's dream was to play in the Big Ten. He would later turn down an offer to play basketball for Colorado because it wasn't Big Ten basketball. His parents didn't say any- thing. Then Harvard came calling, and even with- out an offer from Michigan or any other school in the conference, he didn't accept that offer either - he was holding out for Michigan. His mother, Nancy, was worried. She feared that her son would miss out on the right opportu- nity waiting for a call that might never come. As he approached the start of his senior sea- son at Michigan, all Stuart wanted was to keep playing. He knew his future after Michigan was dependent on the upcoming season, on how well he performed. The Big Tenhad always been his dream, but now he wanted more. THE SEASON December 8 - Stuart slid into a chair in the lobby of the Ross Academic Center. It was barely a month into the season, but he seemed exhausted. Maybe all the traveling the team had done had taken its toll on him, or maybe it was his inconsistent play. Whatever the cause was, he looked weary. "Things have gone by pretty fast," Stuart admitted. Three weeks earlier, he was loose. He wasn't worried. He wasn't stressed. He was at ease. But one month into the season, things had changed. No longer waiting for his senior season to start, he was nine games into the season and trying to slow things down. "It makes you appreciate how much time you had at such a great school. The emotions are starting to build up a little bit - you don't really notice it - when you think that you're never going to get thatgame back or that you're never going to play this team again. It's just kind of weird to think about." Since scoring 14 points, grabbing five boards and dishing four assists in the season- opener against Ferris State, Stuart had mixed poor showings with efficient performances. He was pressing and it was unsettling for him. With every sub-par game came the weight of unmet expectations - his own lofty expectations - and his lasting legacy. "It's one last game you have to make a last- ing impression on people, and after this year you very well may be easily forgotten. Every day you're working to make your impression and it is added pressure. It is added pressure that I didn't really expect thinking about it at the beginning of the year." Or maybe the pressure had always been there, quiet, unacknowledged. Maybe it was there from the day he turned down Harvard. But it didn't matter when the pressure settled, just that it did. What Stuart needed then was to rid himself of all the expectations and justplay basketball. He needed it to be fun again. "You thought senior year you were going to let loose and be more comfortable. It hasn't quite turned out howI wanted it to." And then the conversation turned towards his future. "(Flaying professionally is) the kind of thingI want. No matter how short it is, or how little I play, or even if I don't play at all - it will be just another learning experience." And as Stuart noted, though it would have been smart for him to start preparing for a life without basketball and thinking about an alternative plan just in case, he just couldn't get himself to think about it. He wanted to put off job-searching until later so he could focus solely on basketball. "I don't want to put too many eggs in one basket." He paused, and then confessed: "But sometimes, it's hard notto." October18 - Fear. That's what motivated Alex more than anything. She feared her career ending before she wanted it to, and she feared playing poorly during the final weeks of her career - she feared leaving the wrong legacy behind. Four weeks earlier, this uneasiness wouldn't have arisen. Alex was playing well and had helped the Wolverines to an unde- feated nonconference record, 12-0. But in the middle of October, fear, rational fear, slowly crept into her mind. She was battered, both physically and mentally, and the Wolverines were just 3-5 since winning the Michigan/ Adidas Invitational, planting them in the middle of the Big Ten standings. Three days earlier, Michigan barely squeaked past cellar-dweller Northwestern in five sets - a team that had only one win in seven conference games entering the matchup - to halta four-game losingstreak. But if the Wolverines didn't improve quickly, the far- fetched ideaof Michigan not earning a bid to the NCAA Tournament would become a See SENIORS, Page SB