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action. At the time, he also grew
convinced his landlord had turned
others against him. He had trouble
fitting in at the University. He
was anti social, disdained others
and showed little willingness to
communicate with peers.
He began to have nightmares. In
them, he was constantly hounded by
organized society, which he usually
manifested as psychologists. The
psychologists tried to control his
mind with tricks, causing him to
grow angrier and angrier.
Eventually, this man who did
not bend - not even in the world of
dreams - would break. He would
kill the psychologists as well as their
allies, and afterward, feel relief and
liberation. Then, though, his victims
would spring back up. As time went
by, he grew more successful in
keeping them dead by concentrating
According to a detailed
psychological profile done of him
by psychiatrist Sally Johnson,
Kaczynski experienced a period of
a few weeks in the summer of 1966
during which he was constantly
In a severe twist of logic that
is telling of his jumbled thought
processes during his time at the
University, he reasoned that the only
way he would ever be able to touch a
woman was to become one himself.
Kaczynski began to fantasize about
When he returned to Ann
Arbor in the fall, he went as far
as to make an appointment at the
University Health Center to see a
psychiatrist to discuss whether a sex
change would be a good choice for
him. Kaczynski's plan was to trick
the doctor into believing that the
operation wasn't merely for erotic
purposes, but was rather intended
to make him into the more feminine
person he was destined to be.
As he was sitting in the waiting
room, he experienced a sudden
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change of heart, and instead he lied
to the psychiatrist, telling him he
had come because he was depressed
about the possibility of being drafted
into military service.
He deplored the shame sexual
cravings had caused him. As he
walked away, Kaczynski felt a flood
of humiliation. He felt disgusted. He
felt like he had lost control of his
libido. He felt like he didn't want to
The Unabomber finally had
the psychiatrist.- The very thought
improved his mood. He did not care
whether he himself lived or died, so
maybe it would make him feel better
t4 kill someone else, too.
"Just then there came a major
turning point in his life," he later
told Johnson. :'Like a phoenix, I
burst from the ashes of my despair
to a glorious new hope."
It was then that he decided to
spend his life killing. He would
avoid capture in order to continue to
kill. Kill. It is easy to imagine the
word running through his head as he
walked home across campus from
the health center. Kill.-Kill. It was
a thunderclap of clarity. The story
arc of his life had revealed itself to
him. He must have felt like he had
finally worked to the end of some
unsolvable,-proof and was left with a
simple answer: kill.
The Unabomber decided he would
go to Canada, he later told Johnson.
He would hide in the woods with
only a rifle to keep him company.
"If it doesn't work and if I can get
back to civilization before I starve
then I will come back here and kill
someone I hate," he wrote.
First he had to get enough money
to buy a cabin and some land to carry
out his plans of delicious revenge.
He graduated from the University in
1967 and was hired as an assistant
professor at the University of
California at Berkeley.
In 1969, having made enough
money to fund the construction
of a secluded cabin in the wild of
Montana, the Unabomber resigned
from his post at Berkeley.
Back in Ann Arbor, the news
reached Shields that his former
prize student had quit. A concerned
Shields sent Berkeley a letter asking
what had happened.
"He said he was going to give
up mathematics," a professor wrote
back. "He wasn't sure what he was
going to do."
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