12 - The Michigan Daily - Friday, January 23, 1998 FRIDAYFOCUS An Arbor homeless attempDt to overcome past, rebuild lives Lorraine sat in front of Good Time Charlie's last week with her 13-year-old boy at her side, begging students to give money to "a hungry, homeless family." She received a few slices of pizza and a pocket full of spare change, but the donors were out- numbered by students who averted their eyes and turned their heads the other way. Lorraine berated those who did not acknowledge her pleas, but said she is thankful for what she received. "In Ann Arbor people can afford to be a little more generous. In Ypsilanti, I'd die out here," Lorrraine said. And Lorraine is not alone. here's a man in Ann Arbor with a red- and-blue striped sweater who doesn't know what he'll be doing in five min- utes. His eyes are glazed over and his semi-bleached hair is ratted and pulled back behind his ears. All he can say, again and again, is "There's so much confusion. There's so much confusion." Early the next morning, the sweatered man descends onto the streets, the shelter door slam- ming shut behind him. He represents a part of the United States that most people pretend does not exist. Not all these people are mentally ill or addicted to drugs and alcohol. Many are just a step away from main- stream America - people who, at one time, held a nine-to-five job, owned a home and supported a family. A place to sleep Jeffrey spends his days in front of East Quad residence hall, talking to students with a bottle in-hand. Many of the students know him by name, give him a hug and even ask him to smoke a bowl in their rooms. He has laid roots in Ann Arbor, but he was a real-life Ken Kesey, traveling the country as a counterculture figure. Jeffrey attended four universities, including Duke and a small community college in the East. But his transitory nature and the opportunity to tour with the Grateful Dead lured Jeffrey away from academia. As he sat on a curb on East University Avenue, running his fingers through his knarled white beard, he pondered why Jerry Garcia deserved a commemorative postage stamp. "I toured with the Dead and loaded speakers and shit for them for five years," Jeffrey said. "What a bunch of bunk - Garcia is getting a stamp. I smoked with him all the time." LSA first-year student Eric Bernstein goes out of his way to help Jeffrey. Bernstein said he rarely gives money to the homeless when walking home to East Quad, but he has developed friendships with Jeffrey and some men who "basically live in front of Taco Bell. "1 usually take extra pieces of fruit to them," Bernstein said. "I know these guys like to drink a lot, so I usually don't give them money." Bernstein said these men may at times seem rude, though they are good at heart. "Every once in a while I'll see them at house parties. They know a lot of people at this school," Bernstein said. "Everyone loves to hear Jeffrey's stories about touring with the Dead. He's one of the nicest guys around." On a chilly afternoon, Jeffrey found solace in the warmth of Taco Bell. He was joined by a friend who identified himself as "Pork Chop." Invigorated by the warmth, Jeffrey recalled his journey from Florida to Ann Arbor. "I got a job as a line cook in a restaurant in Fort Lauderdale (Fla.) that was a front for a Mafia cocaine operation," Jeffrey said. "This pretty girl came in one day, and it turned out she was a U of M student on spring break, and we got to know each other that week. "Then the restaurant I was working in got raided by the feds and I decided to move to Ann Arbor to live with her." After speaking continuously for more than an hour, Jeffrey suddenly went silent. He looked back at Taco Bell's door and stared at an enter- ing police officer. A few seconds later, the manager and officer walked up to the table, told Pork Chop he was trespassing and gave him five minutes to leave. Pork Chop had trouble understanding what was happening, and Jeffrey told his friend to lis- ten to the police officer's orders. "Now you see what goes on. This type of thing happens every day," Jeffrey whispered. "They usually don't get me because I'm smarter than most of them are." The store owners tell a different story. Tony Shamoun, manager of In and Out Food Store, said homeless people cause problems on a regu- lar basis. "They're not only homeless, they're drunk half the time. For all the taxes we pay here, the cops should take them out," Shamoun said. "With all the tourism Ann Arbor gets to see, people like that out here is ridiculous." Shamoun said homeless people ask him for money 20 or 30 times each day, and he is unable to prevent them from loitering in front of his store.r. You can "I walk out and tell them to move and they deal throu just come back five minutes later," hulmblefle Shamoun said. "They bug the hell out of A everyone out here. I wish (the police would) take them out of here. They shouldn't even be homeless - they should go and get jobs. They are as healthy as you or I." After the officer left the restaurant, Jeffrey threw anger aside and picked up his story where he had left off, remembering his first days in Ann Arbor. "I married the girl in 1984, got a job doing groundwater monitoring for an engineering firm and had a daughter," he said. But after five years of marriage, he said, "things fell apart." "I had nothing. I was fucked up on drugs and was pissed off with the world," Jeffrey said. "I just blew up and left and I've been homeless ever since." James Bryant, manager of Ashley Day Shelter, said some homeless people don't want to be helped. "Some of them think it's a good situation," Rich said. "They could work for a few weeks, and then use the money to get high." Jeffrey said that while he has lots of good friends, the streets are mean, and every day is a struggle for survival. "It's like war out here," Jeffrey said. "We have w7ni to deal with the crackheads who want to take you for every penny. If they can take you to a back alley and slit your throat F they would. "I've had three friends floating in the river. One of them was choked to death and another had his throat slit. I sit around and mind my own business and that's probably why I'm still alive," he said. Jeffrey said that tomorrow he will leave his friendly corner to spend 30 days behind bars. His crime was committed while trying to find a warm place to sleep. "I was arrested at night for trespassing," said Jeffrey shrugging his shoulders. But he had no apologies. "I sleep where I put my head," he said Where change starts Chinelo is no bum. A former Kmart merchan- dise specialist, Chinelo doesn't ask for handouts or commit petty thievery. He works part-time at the People's Food Cooperative on Fourth Avenue. He is one of the many inhabitants of a shelter on East Huron Street, a place with sticky Darn agreafloors, smelly walls, ragged couches and Oh militant vagabonds. "People have jobs Sir here," he said. "We Chinelo. work. We live as nor- n Arbor homeless man mal human beings. We still feel we need a chance." But he is wary of the terse relationship between the home- less and the city. "Ann Arbor doesn't want us here - we know that," he said. "We know this lot is worth more as a parking lot than a shelter." Bryant said many homeless use Ann Arbor as a base to turn their lives around. "If I had to be homeless, I'd want to be in Ann Arbor," he said. Bryant said Ann Arbor has extensive services available for individuals who want mental or substance abuse counseling, or need help find- ing housing and getting a job. Chinelo has not given up on life. As he sits on a ripped couch in the basement of the shelter, he admits that this is not the best place for him. He has learned a lot through his experiences, he said. "I made some bad choices," Chinelo said. "To me, it's not an embarrassment to be here. You can learn a great deal through humbleness." Still, he realizes he is young. In a few weeks he will be organizing a hip-hop event at the Gypsy Cafe on Fourth Avenue that will combine music and poetry to examine the problems of the com- munity and possibly stir up some emotion in a town that he dubs "conser- vative and lifeless." "If we do something really great here, Ann Arbor can be the model for the rest of the world," he said. "I expected to go to the Michigan Union and find some great things going on with a lot of stu- dent activism. I didn't find it. Above: Michael and Chinelo, two Ann Arbor homeless men, are living in the Huron Street Shelter while they try to find jobs. Right: , "It's a place for stu- Chinelo, te dents to eat and get to coffee shop their ATM," he said. philosopher, "That isn't a real student Arbor's union. This town needs activism has something." withered He gestured with his away. large, skinny fingers while he told of his passion for activism and learning about people. He yearns to study photography at a community college. He loves great debates with people in Borders Books, and Music, and he visits the library regularly, often browsing the Web. However, this seemingly idealistic enthusi- asm is coupled with a keen sense of realism, often shockingly interweaving the two qualities at any point during conversation. "America thinks everything is equal. It's not," Chinelo said. "I really began to understand how America works from this point of view. To real- ly understand people you must first understand the inequality in this world." Pointing to the floor of the shelter, he said "real change starts here, on this level." A lost Christmas Joseph never thought he'd be where he is now. Five years ago, he fell down three stories of stairs while working as a chemist for Stroh's Brewing Company. Now, he sits in the dungy basement of a homeless shelter, with his mental faculties and desire to work intact. But with his cyatic nerve damaged, working is difficult, if not impossible. "I just got out of the hospital yesterday," he sighed, pointing to the hospital bracelet loosely attached to his wrist. Joseph graduated with a chemistry degree from Dillard University in New Orleans. He is divorced and maintains regular contact with his 12-year- old daughter. He looks down as he explains why he could not buy her a Christmas gift. "Two months ago I was robbed. That deprived my daughter of a Christmas and forced me to stay in the shelter longer than I would have liked," Joseph said. "The shelter itself is not a problem, but there are other elements who prey on home- less: loan sharks, gamblers, drug dealers." George, a fellow shelter resident who was lis- tening from the back of the shelter where he was ironing his shirt for work, said the homeless are rarely perpetrators, but often are victims of crime. "Homelessness is a problem swept under the rug," George said. "The homeless have never been dangerous. It's common knowledge peo- ple get their government checks at the beginning the library every day to teach myself about com- puters and the Internet." Despite his disability, his efforts seem to be working. "I like to say: 'If the mind can con- ceive, you can achieve.' I have an interview with an engineering firm on Monday," Joseph said. 4 Packing up, moving on A week ago, Andrew spent his nights in a shel- ter in Ann Arbor. This weekend, he walked out its doors, clutching a cardboard box with the last of his belongings and headed to a new apartment. The laborious task of working two jobs, sav- ing every spare penny and living his days in the shelter was more than he could take. "I'm just trying to work," Andrew said. "I just want to keep saving more money, saving more money.' Andrew has spent the last few months in one of Ann Arbor's shelters after trying to stay as far away as possible. "At the shelter, I tried to stay very arms-length," he said. "You become friends with people, but nothing more than sim- ple chit chat. I tried to stay away." George said he thinks many homeless people take the shelter and other services for granted. "I've been pleased with how people treat the homeless here," George said. "The homeless in Ann Arbor are spoiled and need a good kick in the butt. Like with welfare, people somel times find a comfort zone and it becomes a cycle." Andrew never let himself fall into this trap. His deep-set eyes and long, dark hair chronicle the life of a man who smiles with a gentle strain. Not lacking drive, but rather seeking an even- tual goal, Andrew was unsure of his life's end and aspirations. "I'm just trying to save money," he repeated while drawing circles with his shoe on the rubber step. "I haven't really though about what I want to do." The obsession with leaving the shelter con- sumes conversation. Whatever Andrew speaks of ultimately turns to his plans to work and save money. "In Ann Arbor you need two jobs," he said. "This place is very expensive." I1 :t. .~