4 * 4 t True of the Normal Heart We found these letters among the books of a job-lot at Over- beck's. We thought they were amusing. Farrell Baguette, we learned, re-registered for the fall semester of 1939-1940, but attended no classes after Thanksgiving vacation. 314 South State Street Ann Arbor, Michigan March 6, 1939 Dear Mr. Warwick: You now approach the half-way mark of your stay here as a writer in residence, and since my own interest in letters has grown now to occupy all my waking hours, I thought it advantageous to me to see whether I could get to know you better. We have met, on several occasions, but each of these has been unsatisfactory for me, at any rate, since there could be only the barest exchange of greeting between us, followed by a minute or two in which you have invariably tried to remember my name and where we last met and what, if any- thing, was said between us. I don't suppose that you even can re- member what I look like. I audit the course that you teach in Contemporary Poetry and find i.t quite interesting, but I think that it would mean so much more to me if only I could get to know you. Therefore I extend this invitation to lunch, or dinner, or even tea, leaving the time and the place open, since you are by far the busier of the two of us. Hopefully, Farrell Baguette 11. 3. 39. Mr. Baquette, Can't make lunch, don't take tea. Dinner taken up for the next month. I've put your name in the class book, but can't find card. A. W. March 12, 1939 Dear Mr. Warwick, I beg you to take my name from the class book. There isn't any class card. I'm only auditing on my own, since being only a Sopho- more, I have not the necessary prequisities. I am disappointed and dismayed that you have made yourself inaccessible to a student eager to make some fruitful contact. Sincerely, Farrell Baguette March 12, 1939 Dear Grant, I've done the most extraordinary thing. I've gone and begun a correspondence with Andrew Warwick, none other. He seems quite a withdrawn person, and not too nice, but still he is a poet, and he might like to read some of my little things, and even help me along. But maybe not. Anyway I've just begun. I felt rather out of it at your wedding supper, and that was the last time I saw you to speak with for any length of time. I didn't have a chance to tell how much yours and Karl VanCamp's taking me into your apartment, when you were a junior, he a senior and I only a freshman, has done to change the course of my life. The con- stant company of older people, though not so much older that I didn't respect their opinions, helped me to learn what the advant- ages of this university might be. And now, what with a famous poet here, whose competence and fame in the field of political literature are excelled by nobody . . . well, I'm simply coming into my own. I hope that this spring semester, and even the summer to follow it (I've quite completely decided to stay here for the summer if I think in June that Warwick will be even more accessible then) will prove as profitable to me as the entire four years have proven to any other two people taken together. I hear that you and the Mrs. are expecting in a few months. Shall I send you pink presents, or blue ones at the shower? Perhaps you won't be sure and I'll have to settle on a neuter green. Be sure to say, and write soon. Luck, Farrell Baguette 14. 3. 39. Mr. Baguette, I now see the business about the cards and class book. Sorry you were disappointed, but glad you were sincere. Where do you sit in class? Do you ever say anything? A. W. March 15, 1939 Dear Mr. Warwick, I thought to make a Parthian shot with my last letter, but having found now that the field was not lost altogether, I'll re-enter. I sit third from the right end, as you face the class, of the second row. I haven't presumed to say anything, assuming that a good deal of your grading is on the discussion, and I'm not to ge graded at all, as you now understand. I go to see you Thursday afternoons at the Hopwood Room, and you'll probably recognize me among the group that surrounds you. Sincerely, Farrell Baquette N. 3. 39. Mr. Baguette, A Lady Gregory thing, Arts Theatre, will open this month, 27. If you meet me in the loby, we'll find seats together. A. W. little sausages with shreds of pimento (but these sometimes float loose and make you cough.) Katie, she's French, swishes the glasses with absinthe, and leaves a truffle per. I say it makes the whole thing tste like a ruber tire. I don't think I'll go to Katie's anymore; Pat doesn't think so either. They're all singing Schau mich bitte nicht so an. Karl 24. 3. 39. Dear Mr. Warwick, I certainly shall attend the premiere of the Lady Gregory, being,. as I have for some time been, interested in the Keltic Movement. I shall be looking for you in the lobby eightish. Farrell Baguette 1. 4. 39. Dear Karl, I've been flopping about a good deal with Warwick. We have been to two dinners and one cocktail party. At the house of one professor of German I happened to overhear Warwick describing me as the most promising young person on Campus, in his eyes. I've shown him some of my poems, the older ones, the ones with less polish, and he seemed to like them. He talked about each one for some time, and saw things in them that I didn't know I had. Are you still going to parties? Who are all these women? I didn't know you could get absinthe. What kind of a job have you come into? F.B. 7. 4. 39. Dear Karl, Last night there occurred the first really significant and quite lengthy interview with my new and quite close friend Warwick. When I first opened this correspondence and later found myself in personal contact with him, I had expected nothing beyond a sort of master-disciple relationship which might proceed on a less stilted level than is usual in the academic situation. I wanted, frankly,. something less facile, less witty, less gay and at the same time more . shall I say? ... meaningful . . . namely that certain abstraction peculiar to the poets since time out of mind, that consciousness of a mutual and conscious effort to create with the raw stuff of figure, rhythm and theme, a new and strikingly tanglible thing. . Last night I was invited, for the third time within a week, out for cocktails. We, that is Warwick and I, sat with two others, one of whom was the German professor I mentioned before; and the other, someone connected with the speech department, was our host. The conversation, led by, and I might even say monopolized by Warwick, was entirely about the announcement that Britain and France will ,defend the sovereignty of Poland against Fascist aggres- sion. This broke up about ten. And Warwick said that we'd go up to his place for a little drink. So up we went. He lives in a nice little house on one of those quaint little streets that slope down to the northward from Geddes road. He says he's subletting it from a professor of English on sabbatical. We drank sweet vermouth from martini glasses. He talked more about the pact that Britain and France have about Poland, and seemed to think that it would be only a matter of time before Russia joined in. He acted rather strangely. And this is what I was talking about before, and now I'll be specific. He seems to want me to enter com- pletely into the spiritof these professoral parties, and the rounds of theatrical fetes. I wish that I could convince him not to lose him- self in this debutante swirl of parties and small groups for supper, where everything is so salty, and instead try to enter the serious intellectual circles. Of course I have tried to associate with the ser- ious people, but have not succeeded with integrating myself. But now that I am such good friends with Warwick I am sure that they would accept me, if only because, that way, he would accept them. I tried to make Warwick understand this. Warwick sat across from me, half reclining on a divan, talking rather excitedly with his cigarette and his drink. He talked, ignoring me, of the world situation, then suddenly exhorted me or explained to me. But more often he assumed an intimacy and told me that what I had ought to do is relax, to lie back, so to speak, or . . as he often said, to "Come out . . . " here he narrowed his eyes as though looking for the right phrase," . . . of your shell." Then he opened his eyes very wide, so wide that I thought he must be staring at the wall behind either side of my shoulders. This lasted a long while. Late in the conversation he draw in the shutters and he let me uncork another quart of vermouth. He turned off all the lights in the room, leaving a Candle in front of and below my face, burning on the table before me beside my drink, and turned on a red bulb over his head. His blond hair looked red and lustrous. He is deep-eyed, more than I ever realized, and looked young, too, no older than you are. I kept thinking that I was staying way past the polite hour, and more than once I said I thought I imposed too much on him; each time he was prompt to deny it, and asked me to please stay. It is true, that the lot of the poet is loneliness, and that it is only by constant aloneness and introspection that one can reach that almost mystical pinnacle which all true poetic creation is.- But, as the mountain climber must sometimes have respite from his labors, so must the poet have respite, not only from the labor of creation but also from that self-induced element in which, and only in which, it can take place. When I left it surprised me by being almost noon. I came straight home, and I write this before I get in bed. F.B. rather. Come to my office at four tomorrow. We'll talk about en- closed. Hope you feel better. Warwick (Enclosure) Berlin 31. 3. 3. Dear Andrew, I miss the shiny, colorless hair the boys wore so long once. Now you see them on Friedrichstrasse, all shorn, looking coarse and bul- let-headed. My friends, the ones that are left, burn their news- papers to keep warm. Today we'll burn day before yesterday's. We soak them in water for a day, roll them into bails to let them dry for another, and burn them on the third. We think, when we warm ourselves, of all the documents flushed down toilet bowls a few years ago when the German Com- rades were caught off balance by the fire. The Soviet negotiates now with England, and everybody waits for word from the Kremlin; but we know the next step will be Eng- land's again. In no more than seven days, England will announce a pact with France defending Po- lish sovereignty. Britain will holler this as though it were quite some- thing, but the Soviet will recog- nize how little this gesture is mili- tarily, and how worthless ideolog- ically. It will be May before the world is calm enough to see what the Soviet knows now, and then, after this fatherly, dramatic and ironical pause, the Soviet will an- nounce its intentions. Here the Nazis laugh, we smile liplessly; our information is faultless; and some say we're leaving bombs in the tubes on northbound trains crowded with government clerks. We've suffered only two recent arrests and no betrayals. There have been three bombs, on the other hand. Repulsive, limping worse every third step, and with facial twitch becoming more noticable, Herr Schickelgruber seems to be work- ing himself into a small frenzy over Poland. Yesterday it rained, and he ran cowled, stooped and loping, from the Kaiserhoff to the chancellory with Goebbels follow- ing him like a puppy. The bald soldiery stand stifly in all the beerhalls where we used to lounge. V. depressing. If they'd come over to our side they wouldn't have cut off their hair. D'you think there's a poem in this for you? I'm leaving for London in two days. Regards, Leica Muskegon, Michigan May 4, 1939 WESTERN UNION Farrell Baguette c/o Speech Dept. U. of M. Ann Arbor Mich Write Last Week Got Letter Back Wor- ried Your Mother What About Festival Tickets Room Reserva- tions for Your Parents Yourself Alice and Me We Look Forward to This Each Year Where Present Residence A n s w e r by Return Grant 66 Concord May 5, 1959 Dear Grant, I'm sorry I forgot to tell you and my parents about my May Festival plans, or rather the lack of them. Actually the festival this year leaves quite a bit to be de- sired. The program is all Roman- tics, the performers indifferent We know very well that nobody exists much in the music world except Bach and Bartok, and neither of these, sadly enough, is represented this year. But more important than the imposition of my own tastes on yours and those of your wife and my parents, is the fact thatI have acquired a role in a new play, a consideration which makes it impossible for me to attend any May Festival pro- grams, for I must practice my new role almost constantly. This new drama may never have a staging open to the public, but for those involved the experience is exciting and extraordinary. Soothe my parents and console them. In the event, however, of a public performance, I'll send you tickets straightway. Farrell 5. 5. 39. Dear Grant, I might say again, if I've said it before, that I regret that the nice tradition you established, and which I and my parents were happy to enter, of attending the music festival each May, was so abruptly, that is, with so little warning, (the lack of which caused you some expense) interrupted. The new role made me unmindful of my obligations. Two days ago, a certain bleak- ness blurred the little light that has risen amidst the already clouded and darkening world out- look. Litvinov, long the cementing element in the League of Nations, and who so patiently watched, while his nation stood helpless in the agonies of birth, Hitler snatch, from the traitor hands of England and France, first the Rhineland, then Austria, and finally Czecho- slovakia . . . Litvinov has been replaced by Molotov. This might indicate anything from a reversal of policy to a stiffening of the present one. But we, for the time being, as Warwick says, can only wait and trust that the policy of the Soviet Union will always be an affirmation of World Commu- nism's coisistency. Warwick seem- ed shocked at first, and even now that he has overtly resolved the problem of Soviet intentions, he is depressed and listless, as though the starch had been taken from him. It is especially now, how- ever, that we see Warwick, great poet that he is, able to create a kind of hope by his artist's insight. "We watched the gathering clouds Over East and West; Were they forthcoming gale, Werethey our motives' test? As Litvinov retired And Molotov strode in Did this, indeed, retort To the years, invested sin? Long falsehood keeps the field, The peasant's cry is stilled; And the holders of the mortgage Were never more good-willed; Old England is still monied, Sells lies from Punch's booth; But in this bed, my love, We have the world's whole truth." F. B. New York May 13, 1939 Vyvyan said I couldn't keep Snaghetti in the refrigerator. Spa- ghetti doesn't think so either. But goodness. Farrell, I can't keep Spaghetti decently on what little I'm kept on, can I? Katie has lobster for breakfast. When you go to Vyvyan's house all you get is toast and Jam. I don't think I'll go to Vyvyan's anymore. Edith gives you muffins, piles and piles. Vera says she has a tooth-ache. Nobody believes her. Nobody cares. I think she wants some muffins. I say you should come to New York, and get in on all these things. Nobody'll be down on you if you come too soon, but if you come too late you'll get stuck in the rear, most likely. All those muffins. Totally dry. Karl 22. 5.K39 Dear Karl, I read your letter and couldn't make head or tail of it. I did vaguely gather that you wanted. me to join you in New York. But before I consider this, I think, that, as one of your best friends, I ought to make some attempt to bring your wandering mind back to the pressing reality of the day. Today we all heard the announce- men that Italy and Germany have decided that the axis on which the world will turn shall run from Rme to Berlin. England and France have demonstrated ei- ther an inability, or their lack of willingness to support the security of Eastern Europe with arms. And so nations all over Europe now think themselves forced to join this Nazi onslaught . . . to look after their own safety even if this involves grovelling before Ger- many. This is a fine indication that the mastery of Litvinov, though he mayno longer nomin- ally be at the helm, still guides the policy of the Soviet. Thus this de- lay on the part of Soviet Russia in declaring the inviolability of Poland, has, so to speak, separated the men from the boys. Those na- tions whose decadence o,' view pro- hibits their seeing bei,)nd their immediate safety, mu( ! less all the way to world freedom, have turned spinelessly to the greatest- seeming power at the given mo- ment. And so another country that might have been saved from par- ticipation in a sin much greater than its own, has fallen due to Anglo-French indecision, which looked for a long time like perfidy, but which now displays itself as only some' high stupidity. Warwick seems disturbed and sad at this, for he can see even in this time of confused values, that something redeemable to the good has fallen completely into the hands of the bad. And he, see- ing farther than any American. sees that this endangers not only little Poland, but also every for- ward-thinking American. England and France are hopelessly in- volved, and Russia finds herself involved too. But you can be sure that the Soviet has not been sit- ting on its hands while negotiat- ing, but rather preparing for the battle that might take place. a battle that would never have been imminent had the West only listened. These things ought to revolve in your mind as you flop about with these terrible women. As for the invitation. I should think that quite out of the question for this summer. Warwick is now living through a difficult period of his life, perhaps the most difficult. and he needs someone sympathetic by his side constantly, and he seems to have chosen me. I hope, however, that sometime I might come to see you, since all this you write seems to indicate that you need some steadying influence. Farrell Muskegon, June 10, 1939 Dear Farrell, I haven't had a chance to write you since I have been assuming a greater responsibility in my fath- er-in-law's interests lately, and have had the additional worry of Alice's health. I would not have been so urgent last month (had not your mother worried me), since, at that time also, the doc- tor was advising against long trips. I was glad to read, in your last letter, that you are now concern- ing yourself over world affairs. It seems to me that this is a step for- ward for you in the process of ma- turing, I mean insofar as it indi- cates an awakening to situations other than ideal ones. Perhaps, after all, Warwick is a wholesome influence on you, even though his own particular inclinations toward politics are not sounder than those of ordinary people. I thought his poem was very nice, very interest- ing even, if not exemplary of his best style. It is interesting to see, as in the conclusion of this poem, how the poets of today are turn- ing back once more to the tradi- tional values, and see, in what certainly are troubled times, a bul- wark of peace and felicity in the sympathy of a secure home life. I would like to know, and I trust you are in a position to tell me, whether Warwick has a wife in Ann Arbor, or is thinking of some- one far away. I was surprised to her what a wealthy and strictly rOjn-student section you have moved into. Are you living in the house of one of your professors?. or has some sweet old lady taken a sudden interest in your comfort? You haven't told me what course work you are taking there this summer. Are you taking a writing course, for instance? Whatever you do do, I am sure you will fully enter the spirit of it. Grant Welc 15. 6. 39 Dear Grant, I was very glad to get your let- ter yesterday. I hope that you are, adjusting well to your new posi- tion, and that the mother-to-be is doing well if not better. And, not to be imposing, I do look forward to attending a September christ- ening. I'm glad to hear that you ap- prove of the course my life has been taking under the guidance of my professors here, not the least among them being Warwick. The fact that world affairs have fi- nally become real for me does, I believe, indicate a kind of growth; for no one who would be a poet today can let pass matters which are urgently present to mankind as a universal community. In that poem, which we have been privi- leged to read before publication, Warwick resolves the tumult which beset him by invoking not any ac- tual woman, but a being who, is there for him alone, one of those ethereal, wholly conceptual things which can alone comfort the rest- less mind. It is not the home, but instead the ideal creature that brings peace and bliss to the poet. I'm busy this summer practicing my role in that new thing I spoke about before. This role of mine is an intrinsic part of a comedy, whose production-progress ought to reach a climax sometime be- tween the middle of August and the beginning of September. At that time your presence, or your comments, will be looked for. F.B July 5, 1939 New York Farrell, I have beenat Edith's. Skyrockets. Mango brandy. Edith's in Jail. Vera says she misses the muffins. Vera told me, privately, that she doesn't have a toothache any more. I don't believe her. No- body cares. They're all saying Warwick will be in town on the seventeenth of August. Are you coming to New York? Karl Aug. 21, '39 Dear Farrell, . You'll never imagine what hap- pened. You should see the furni- ture. Heavens. The-plumbing went bad. Pat really is strong. I don't think you'd better come here. In- stead, why don't the two of us meet at the Seville, on Fourth Street, at eight tomorrow. I got awfully banged around with this trouble in the flat, so I might not look very well, Karl August 21, 1939 Muskegon, Mich. Dear Farrell, You wrote your parents the day you left Ann Arbor, and they got the news the day you got to New York. I told them not to worry. Although I'm not so glum as when I wrote you last, I'm still sorry now you were not with me then. I presume you left with Warwick. I have not heard from Karl VanCamp since he went to New York. You might tell me how you both are. Grant Welch THE SHERRY-NETHERLANDS HOTEL New York 24. 8. 39 Well, Grant, I did come with War- wick, but he's gotten to be such a bore lately, what with this Molo-- tov-Ribbentrop business, that I wouldn't think about him if I were you. And as for Karl, well wait till you hear. We had dinner the other nigh. At a restaurant in Greenwich Vi- lage where they give you caserole with chicken and shrimps, but don't have any candied asparagus. And Karl has a black eye, and a swollen nose that looks like a big toe. He hasn't got any money ei- ther. Karl's wrists looked like he tried to kill himself, but I don't think he was the one that tried to kill him. I say it was somebody else, somebody much stronger. Isn't that too tawdry? Silliest thing I've heard of in three weeks. Except, maybe, for the way old Warwick's carrying on over this mutual defence thing. Mango brandy. Isn't that something? F. B August 24, 1939 Fire Island Farrell, I thought sure for a min- ute or two there, what with all the disturbance Pat was making. we'd end up on Ricker's Island in the same ward with Edith. But goodness, I wouldn't dream of go- ing there, they don't have cur- tains on the windows. So instead I flopped off to Fire Island where I can convalesce indthe house of a very good friend, doctor, and watch the amusements. They're all wondering how old Warwick'll stand up under the mutual de- fence thing between Russia and Germany. I said I knew a very good friend of his who's be sure to tell. They all said I was name- dropping. I wasn't, was I? What I want to do is see you and find all about the fun you're hav- ing. But I won't come back to town for a week or so. Pat said he'd go back to Nashville. Then he said he'd stay in town and kill me. I say he'll go back to Nash- ville. His father's rich there. How ghastly. I don't know what will become of Spaghetti. a i I 1 i j 1 i M .! Karl Muskegon, Mich August, 24, 1939 i Dear Farrell, I was not amused to hear about Karl. I don't suppose I've ever told you much about Karl and me We did not get on as well our second year as roommates as we did during the first. Sometime I must tell you the particulars of this. But is it true that Karl is broke? Is he in any really serious trouble? If he is'in need of legal or financial assistance, I ought to help, but beyond that nothing can be done for him. If by this time you feel you are in too deep, tell me your posi- tion. Suppose you tell me some- thing about Warwick. G-rant Weicb Fire Island August 28, 1939 Vera says to me she saw Pat off on the train. Pat may be trying to fool me. Vera, maybe too. I think that Pat is gone. Katie says she hears his father heard he hasn't been studying ballet since last June. So I'll probably be flop- ping into town, couple days. Come to see you. Get in on the fun. I suppose you're doing a debutante swirl of parties, aren't you? You and Warwick? Well. I'll see for myself. a i i s . r; a i? ! ' i 298 Christopher Street New York 14, New York March 21, 1939 ever so much busier since I last wrote, martinis, pink drinks, and the theatre. cocktails with the little finger the next Well, Ferrell, I've been what with parties, dinners, I'v learned how to hold my 10. 4. 39. Dear Farrell,1 going to have spot of hopwood coffee tomorrow after with eng- lish people, also writing people, supposed to growl pomes to them. Can sneak you in. Spec. friend. Are you ill? Warwick I sense that you are not used to such long conversations, like ours last week. But people have -them when one is concerned enough about something, and the other is polite enough to listen. . I feel too you are not used to a person's being open to you. You have young man notion a man older is aloof, and when I was open you were shy-made. I am not interested in your mis- apprehensions. In you to see you to the little finger and the thumb, down near the stem, and to hold my cigarettes, meanwhile, between the middle finger and the next to the middle finger. Pink onions~ in the bottom of them. But Mary, she has bare anchovies. And Edith and Vyvyan, they give you Page 8 Karl THE SHERRY-NETHERLANDS HOTEL New York September 2, 1939 Quite a bit's gone on, Grant. Middle of night before last some- body phoned up. They said there'd been a war started. I said let's go back to sleep. Warwick didn't say 15. 4. 39. Dear Farrell,