While I was home from school for' the Thanksgiving holiday, I was looking forward to a w kend of old friends and familiar places. What I got was a gun pointed at me when I couldn't move my car in a heavy traffic situation outside of a party. I was frightened, and then an­ gered at this young Black man and his young Black friends endanger­ ing the lives of four young Black women --<>r anybody -because omeone doesn't move their car. Telling my parents, they wer,e concerned and then angry and the first thing my mother said, "It's that rap music." Well, I had to think, was it the rap music? A week ago, 22-year-old Tupac Shakur was indicted f�r so­ domizing and sexually attacking a By CATHERINE KELLY Michl n Citizen "They are not rebelling against anything . . . they are a bu,,:ch of opportunists who are appealing to an appetite that America has for vulgarity, violence and anarchy in­ side Afro America. " , Stanley Crouch Music critic, author of Notes of a Hang­ ing Judge: Essays and Reviews 1979-1989" By l\JREKA TURK Michl 'lin CltJzen The word on the street is that Tupac has indeed lost his, mind. He got mad props on his portrayal of a deranged thug, a victim of society in the Ernest Dickerson film "Juice". Only now people are wondering whether or not Tupac is a result of art imitat­ ing life. After being arrested a sec­ ond time recently for date raping a Manhattan woman in a New York hotel, even the young kids, who usually hold au fo topr - vail, are doubting Tupac's sanity. Marcela Vasquez, 15, told New York Newsday colum­ nist Sheryl McCarthy that she loved Tupac. He's gorgeous," she said. ''But he's got a split personal­ ity. I don't know which one he really is, a good guy or a bad guy." VASQUEZ'S question is one that is on the minds of a lot of youngsters who find themselves attracted to Tu­ pac's music. Despite the fact that Tupac's music usually comes with phat beats and on four women? Rap is an art form 'of expr ion 20-year-old woman in New York. Two weeks before that, he was arrested for the shooting of two off­ duty police officers in Atlanta. S OOP OGGY DOG, Calvin FLAVOR FLAV- SNOOP DOGGY DOG Broadus, ,20-year -old was indicted for murder. Flavor Flav was arrested and . charged with attempted murder af­ ter police said he shot at a neighbor during an argument. The questionable lyrics found in rap regarding women and violence. Was it rap music that pulled a gun mad tracks, his lyrics usually show a confused cry for help, unity, and understanding in the Blac community. His most recent release, "Keep Ya Head Up" is a supposed trib­ ute to Black women and the struggles they encounter eve- ryday. But if some DJ were to mi the "tribute" with his "I Get Around" it may go some­ thing like this. "Keep ya head up 'Cause I only got one night In town Break out or be down I t Ground Oh child thin.fl a nna get easier" Yolli Santos, 17, told News­ day that she was disap­ pointed in "Keep YaHead Up" because Tupac wasn't prac­ ticing what he preached. '1 t makes me wonder ifhe's trying to be an idol or just writing songs to get money," she said. An idol Tupac is not. And the rough exterior that at­ tracts young girls is not enough to keep them - and - their parents from excus- ing Tupac's actions. , Perhaps Tupac is just too your culture, it is how you dress, who you are and how others per­ ceive you. THOSE LIVING this rap cul­ ture are sadly acting it out. How- TUPAC SHAKUR ever, it is important to realize rap is not unto itself in this society. People are quick to isolate rap andplacetheproblematicsofrap­ sexism, racism and violence � as problems within rap and the rap community. Sexism, racism and violence are pervasive in American society and young to handle the responsi­ bility that goes along with be­ ing in the public eye. After all, dancing out of a courtroom after being re­ leased on bail is not the strong Black male image that the Black community has fought long and hard for. And what of the reply he made after a reporter as ed for a comment? "Thug life," he responded with a minstrel grin. Does Tupac believe that he is living a video or what? There have been various h com outto y that are ot role model , that the job of role model belongs to the parents. HA VE THEY forgotten th at there is a small price to pay when there are kids buy­ ing their albums? That price is being in the limelight. While the limelight role is a bit different from role model, it still means that kids watch your every move. And if you are Tupac, you should most definitely be living up to songs like "If My Honey Calls" .or "Brenda's Got a Baby" or even the duet with MC Breed Se TUPAC,B2 are not unto rap itself. Rap is an outgrowth of America and American society and its prob­ lems. To isolate rap is to put a Band-Aid on an AIDS lesion. Rap is an extension of present American society and is a product of the vul­ garity, violence and and lawl ness IMPOSED on Black America. I STEAD 0 attacking rap we need to look at the problems of rap in the context of America. What made this gun-toting Bl c man think his go more important th the. lives of four young Blac women? Maybe it is the lack of an ego in the first place. For Black people in America who have been victims of institutional and social raci m; who are disproportionately in dire eco­ nomic positions, what ego do you have? What ego can you have nAmer­ ica where this society pl s a value on you becau of how much mon y you have and the expense of the things that you own. If peole feel like they can be n as 'valuable' only by the things they own, Black folks are in trouble as we in rap. for many young Black people that has reached huge commercial and media proportions. However, r p started as an art form in the str ts of the inner city and has been an effective voice for a previously unheard segment of society,youngBlac people. Sol am quick to defend rap. Rap has taken a bad beating from paren , media and most pe0- ple that don't listen and are not living it. Rap is how you live, it is