Opinion OTHER VIEWS My Father's Handwritten Machzor n 1951, my father, Rabbi Moshe Greenberg, didn't recite Kol Nidre. Instead, he was a prisoner in a labor camp in Siberia. At age 20, my father's crime was trying to escape from Russia. He dreamed of making aliyah. But he was caught and sentenced to 25 years of hard labor, leaving behind his par- ents, two sisters and a brother (a prisoner in another camp for a similar "crime"). The job of 1,000 men at my father's labor camp was creat- ing an electriC. station. About 20 of the prisoners were Jewish. At the end of the summer, the Jewish prisoners yearned to observe the upcoming High Holidays. They knew they would lack a shofar, Torah scroll and tallitot (prayer shawls), but they hoped they could find a machzor (High Holiday prayer book). My father spotted a man from the outside, an engineer who worked for the camp on certain projects. He believed the engineer might be a Jew. Kenstu meer efsher helfen? — I "Perhaps you can help me?" he asked the engineer in Yiddish. At that time, most Russian Jews were fluent in Yiddish. He saw the flicker of understanding in the engineer's eyes. "Can you bring a machzor for me, for the Jews here?" he asked. The engineer hesitated. Such a transaction would endanger both of their lives. Even so, the engineer agreed to try. He would copy the machzor in time for Rosh Hashanah and return the book before the holiday. A few days passed. "Any developments?" my father asked the engineer. "Good news and bad news:' he replied. He had located a machzor with difficulty, but it was the only machzor belonging to his girlfriend's father, and the man was furious when his them gather in the sions that I hear him tell a daughter asked him barrack for services. story, he tearfully states that he to give it up. Maybe With his handwrit- had never participated in serv- she told him why she ten prayer book, my ices as meaningful as those in wanted it, maybe not. father served as chaz- prison. My father would zan (cantor) and recit- In 1973, he visited the not relent, however. ed each prayer, repeat- Lubavitcher Rebbe in New York Perhaps, he suggest- ed by others in low Rabbi S chneor City and presented the machzor ed, the man would solemn voices. Gree nberg to him as a gift. A few years lend him the book Seven days later, Specia I to the ago, I visited the rebbe's library and he could copy it they met for Kol Nidre and found my father's machzor. Jewish News and return it in time services. But despite I looked at the worn book with for Rosh Hashanah. their efforts, none of its fragile pages and Hebrew In secrecy, the engineer the worshippers could recall all letters written in haste and handed the machzor to my of the words of that prayer with such respect and determi- father. To copy it, my father from memory. nation. I copied it — on a copy- built a large wooden box and After nearly seven years in ing machine. crawled into it for a few hours jail, my father, along with all This Yom Kippur, as I lead every day. There, hidden from political prisoners, were services at the Chabad Jewish view, he copied the book, line released, owing to the death of Center of Commerce/Walled for line into a notebook. After a Joseph Stalin. The only item my Lake, I will have with me the month, he had copied the entire father took with him was his copy of my father's machzor, machzor, but there was one handwritten machzor. He with the Kol Nidre prayer still page missing — Kol Nidre, the reunited with his family near missing. very first prayer recited on Yom Moscow and later married. My father couldn't recite Kol Kipper. Fifteen years after his release Nidre during his years in My father returned the book, from prison, my family was prison. This year, I will ask my and autumn arrived. The Jewish allowed to immigrate to Israel. congregation, and all of us, to prisoners learned the dates of The machzor came with them. say it for him and anyone else the impending holidays from My father, who still lives in who may not have the opportu- letters from home and, on the Bnei Brak, Israel, doesn't like to nity to do so. holiday, they bribed the guards, remember those painful years probably with cigarettes, to let in Siberia. But on the rare occa- Rabbi Schneor Greenberg is a ❑ Commerce Township resident. M ean ing , M essage, Mood om Kippur is unlike any other day in meaning, message and mood. For 25 hours, we focus on atone- ment and reconciliation. How to do better in the future than we have done in the past flit into our thoughts. More than anything else, however, Yom Kippur is a day about love. When reflecting on love, we are not speaking about roman- tic love, the kind of love that is written about in magazines or displayed in electronic media. This is the love that pervades our Shabbat Shabbaton, a deep unique love within us and sur- rounding us. It envelops us. This love is necessary in y 48 order to have a sense not fair. In 5765, the of a purposeful world unthinkable hap- even as we cry for pened to people in those displaced by New Orleans. More hurricane and by than once, the flood and for those Unetaneh Tokef pained by the results prayer, including the of the moral evil of words "Who Shall Rabbi Herbert man. With love, we Live And Who Shall A. Yoskowitz pray Haneshamah Die," will frighten us. Community Lach — "Oh Lord, the We love life even in View soul is yours;" U'haguf the midst of our paalach —"the body fright, even in a world is your work." We acknowledge where a significant segment of that the soul which is the mankind asks God for death. source of love comes from God. In her memoir All But My Just as we call to God, God calls Life, Gerda Klein remembers us to draw close — what else is how her parents spoke through at the heart of this if not love? the final hours before their We love life, even when life is deportation by the Nazis. Klein f The meaning of Yom Kippur is love. Love God; love life; love each other. was only 18, yet she remem- bered them facing what the morning would bring with the only weapon they had — their love for each other. "Love is the foundation of nobility; it conquers obstacles and is a deep well of truth and strength. After hearing my par- ents talk that night, I began to understand the greatness of their love." The meaning of Yom Kippur is love. Love God; love life; love each other. Perhaps Naomi Shemer, one of Israel's greatest songwriters, said it best when she wrote, Od Lo Ahavti Dai — "Until now, I have not loved enough?' She added, V'Im Lo Achshav, Ematai — "If not now, when?" On Yom Kippur, we are called to draw close — at the heart of that is love. Love is one of the core meanings of Yom Kippur. ❑ Herbert A. Yoskowitz is a rabbi at Adat Shalom Synagogue, Farmington Hills. October 6 . 2005 JN