Arts I Life On The Bookshelf The Days Of Awe In a new book, rabbi expands the meaning behind the High Holidays. SUZANNE CHESSLER Special to the Jewish News R abbi Alan Lew offers both a religious and per- sonal approach to the High Holidays through his book This Is Real and You Are Completely Unprepared: The Days of Awe as a Journey of Transformation (Little, Brown and Co.; $23.95). The rabbi, spiritual leader of the Conservative Congregation Beth Sholom in San Francisco, refers to scholarly Jewish teachings and the ideas of modern Jewish leaders to describe the individual impact of rit- uals and traditions observed from Tisha B'Av to Sukkot. His book, ultimately exploring the meaning of Teshuvah as repentance and return, serves up religious doc- trine with lots of stories from the Jewish past and present and. his own past and present. There also are sec- ular references, with anecdotes that flow from examples of psychological theories to political preferences. "Realizing there's a great deal of life that you can't control and mak- ing peace with that has to do with the spirit of the High Holidays and the theme of my book," says Rabbi Lew, who will discuss his subject in depth during the local Jewish Book Fair in November. "I want to give people an entry into the deep spiri- tuality of the season because these holidays describe the universal jour- ney of the soul." The journey probed by the rabbi involves self-discovery, spiritual dis- cipline, self-forgiveness and spiritual evolution. He defines the observance of this religious period as a return to the idea of home and the dwelling place of God. The purpose of this period, he explains, is to realize that a broken heart can lead to opening one's heart to God. As Rabbi Lew covers each mile- stone in the Days of Awe with an analysis of each one, he reveals how his own journey through life has been fraught with difficulties, including the ending of his first marriage and the rebellious times of his daughter. Lew's wife, author 9/26 2003 124 The Dap a lo,,:rtzc ., 7}i,,,,forrnatifm ► A RE .ETELY PARED "This Is Real and You Are Completely Unprepared: The Days ofAwe as a Journey of Transformation": A guide to personal healing. Sherril Jaffe, wrote about their par- enting heartaches in Ground Rules: What I Learned My Daughter's Fifteenth Year. The rabbi, who asked approval before writing about those close to him, also recalls difficult times expe- rienced by members of his congrega- tion and what he discovered trying to comfort them through the dark periods of their lives. Interspersing Jewish history with current events, he offers his own thoughts on world affairs. Israeli-Palestinian conflict and the aftermath of the 9/11 attacks enter into his commentary. "I wanted this book to have a lot of feeling and in that way reflect a strong human element," explains Rabbi Lew, whose earlier book, One God Clapping: The Spiritual Path of a Zen Rabbi, won the PEN Josephine Miles Award for Literary Excellence and also brought him to Book Fair. "I think it's important to point out the personal connection to rituals and the idea that sometimes there is not too much we can do but pray," he says. Rabbi Lew's call for attention to prayer starts out with an explanation of Tisha B'Av as it remembers the calamities that have befallen the Jewish people and the effects of loss on individual outlook. He goes on to explore the self-analysis ongoing during the month of Elul, and he advises the use of prayer, meditation and focus. Moving from the prayers of Selichot into Rosh Hashanah, Rabbi Lew elaborates on how the Jewish New Year is about the human con- nection to heaven. "The relentlessness of the High Holidays — the long days in syna- gogue, the constant repetition of the prayers, the fasting — wears down our defenses and helps us open to the truth of our lives," writes Rabbi Lew, who has tried Buddhism and now maintains a meditation center next to his syna- gogue. Addressing the "Ten Days of Teshuvah," he refers to personal transformation as a continuing process "away from the external world and toward the inner realm of the heart" and the significance of personal choices as they affect Jewish connections. From exploring the emotional effects of hearing Kol Nidre to giv- ing personal accounts of observance, Rabbi Lew analyzes Yom Kippur as a rehearsal for death and an opportu- nity to pursue purifying the soul. He also examines Neilah, the service that has to do with the closing of the gates of heaven, and progresses on to the celebration of Sukkot. "I intended my book to show movement," says Rabbi Lew, whose book's journey from life to death ultimately asks readers to open themselves to new understanding of their own purpose and inject spiritu- ality into their daily activities. "Jewish theology reflects move- ment." ❑ This book is available through www.jewish.corn. Rabbi Alan Lew is scheduled to speak at Detroit's Jewish Book Fair 3:30 p.m. Sunday, Nov. 15, at the Jewish Community Center in West Bloomfield. (248) 661- 1000. Excerpt W e live in a culture that con- ditions us to avoid suffer- ing, and the consequence of this is that we live at some distance from our heart.- We are not in the habit of looking at it, but of dis- tracting ourselves from its con- tent. "As we begin the process of Teshuvah, we need to make a conscious effort to overcome the momentum of this denial and avoidance. This is an effort well worth making. "That pain, Rabbi Alan Lew that afflictive ener- gy that rests on the surface of our hearts and just below it as well, will be the cata- lyst for our transformation. "The nature of our pain points us to the nature of the transfor- mation we need to make. If we are angry, we need to move toward inhabiting our anger and then letting go of it. If we are in despair, we need to move toward hope. But the intensity of our pain is even more helpful in this process than its particular cast. "As we sit in the boundless field of mind during the 10 days of transformation, impulses and feel- ings rise up and fall away all around us. Those impulses and feelings that assert themselves with particular force are the ones we are most likely to follow. "This is the great gift of suffer- ing. Intense afflictive states — anger, boredom, fear, guilt, impa- tience, grief, disappointment, dejection, anxiety, despair -- are the great markers of our Teshuvah. By their very intensity, they call us to transformation:" — From "This Is Real and You Are Completely Unprepared: The Days of Awe as a Journey of Transformation" by Rabbi Alan Lew