had she been on The Practice, she would have been torn apart by the critics. "The fact that I'm being celebrated right now for being an alternative role model for young girls means that final- ly I'm making some kind of contribu- don to society, which I've always want- ed to do," Manheim says. "If a young fat girl is watching The Practice — or reading my book — and she sees that you can be professional, articulate, sophisticated, sexy and smart, and if she says, 'I'm going to be just like that,' then I say 'Hallelujah!'" Fl Debra Wallace writes for Jewish Telegraphic Agency. Clockwise from top left: Camryn'' parents, Jerry and Sylvia Manheim: "They did what any good parent in Southern California would do: They sent me to psychia- trists, to hypnotists; they bribed me." Camryn Manheim, third from right, as Ellenor Frutt on the Emmy Award-winning "The Practice." Camryn, left, and her older sister, Lisa, in Israel: `As a college graduation present, my folks sent my sister and me to Israel. Which didn't make a whole lot of sense since it was my graduation." Plus-size model: Camryn Manheim poses for 'Mode" magazine, which caters to the "plus-size" woman. The title of Manheim's book comes from a one- woman show she staged Off-Broadway in 1993. just for the cash. Oh, it was going to be perfect. I was the unofficial poster child for Levi Strauss. It was all part of my monumental effort never to reveal my body. ... Then came the day of David Rosenthal's bar mitzvah. ... Mom: You are not going to David Rosenthal's bar mitzvah wearing Levi's. Me: Fine. I won't go. ... And that's why, I missed out on almost all the baruch atah.4donai's of my 13-year-old friends. it On my table in my livirig room is a pOtogf . of my father standing in front of a segregated restaurant, holding a picket sign. It says, "Don't Discrimate!" My mother took that photograph 50 years ago. That is my legacy; that is what I am most proud of. g4 Now, I don't know if you've ever been to a Passover seder, but there's this book called the Haggadah (huh god `duh) — which is passed around the table and people ask questions from it like: Why is this night different from all other nights? When will Elijah drink the wine? Why do we hide the matzah? When are you going to medical school? tiM It would have been so easy if I could have been a lesbian. But no, I had to settle for heterosexuality, which, as some of you know, is no day at the beach. Okay, now, we all know some pretty heavy stuff has happened in the Holy Land — you know, signs from God and all. Some people get to the Wailing Wall and have a vision; I heard a voice. "Camryn Camryn Camryn." Somebody — a benevolent spirit per- haps — was whispering my new name to me. (Anticipating a blind date from a personal ad) I had it all planned out. ... We would raise the children as "cultural Jews," not religious Jews, meaning they'd get all of Woody Allen's jokes but be mystified and scared by Benjamin Netanyahu. They would go to the best schools, no matter what sacrifices we needed to make. The boys and girls would have the same curfew, no double standards. They would be bar and bat mitzvah-ed It's in my blood to be an activist. Ever since I was beaten up in sixth grade for voting for George McGovern in my ele- mentary school's mock election, I have been a committed liberal. ... For a long time ... I had severe guilt about not joining the Peace Corps. But as I began to make it as an actor, I realized that just because I wasn't on the "front lines of activism" didn't mean that I couldn't lend my strength to a good fight. And besides, while I'd really love to go out and dig an irrigation ditch, I just look better • in Anne Klein than Gap Khaki. Just kidding. When I got back to my seat, I ... hugged my par- ents and let them heft that beautiful statue. You have never seen so much kvelling and shepping naches. When you've been trying your whole life to make your parents proud, and you see them beaming for you, for your achievement, the feeling is indescrib- able. And better even than winning an Emmy. 5/14 1999 Detroit Jewish News 83