A L on g Way Fifty years later; loneliness and pain cont- I . n ue to scar the memories of people who once lived in the Jewish Children's Home. JILL DAVIDSON SKLAR STAFF WRITER L on the Jewish youngsters who were cared for by a staff that provided dietary nutrients, but no food for the soul. That proof is locked away in the memories of those once assigned to the home. "I do not want to go back to it in my mind. I don't want to relive it," said Sarah, a West Bloomfield woman who refused to be identified, the scourge of the orphan label still fresh 50 years later. "I have told my husband a little about it, but not my children," she said. "I have tried to block it from my memory." She is not alone in her feelings. In its 25 years of existence, the Jewish Chil- dren's Home or its predecessors, the Detroit He- brew Orphan Home and the Detroit Hebrew Infant Orphan Home, served hundreds of Jewish children. To be in one of the homes, most children had to come from painful circumstances. An intake pol- icy form in the Burton Collection lists the reasons for admission under the heading, "Causes of de- pendency or neglect": "Destitution of parents or parent; employment of mother; death of father or mother; de- sertion of father or mother; illness of moth- er; illegitimacy; incompetence of parents; religious conflicts in case of intermarriage; other conditions threatening the whole- some development of child." An orphan, in other words, was not al- ways a true orphan, a child who had lost both parents. In fact, many children to- day could be considered candidates for ad- mission. Once brought to the home, the children spent their days in the large brick structure that was divided into liv- ing quarters and bedrooms. The boys and girls were separated by The Jewish age and sex for sleeping arrange- Children's Home ments; siblings often were placed in different rooms, compounding was deeded to their loneliness. The living area consisted of a the Jewish large dining room for the children Home for the and a smaller one for the staff Aged in 1945. members; the living room was long and filled with overstuffed furni- The structure to ture and a Zenith radio. the left was A cramped room off to the side of the living room served as a vis- added to the itors' area for children and their original parents. "I remember walking by that building. room one day and seeing a father and a mother," said Peter, a 68- year-old Southfield man who asked that his real name not be used. "The man looked tired. He had on a rumpled suit and she was wearing a dress that went almost to the floor. They looked so sad." The child of a single, working mother, ong stalks of weathered grass poke through a blanket of ice and snow on the field where the Jewish Children's Home used to be. In the front of the lot at Bur- lingame and Petoskey is a large, gnarled, leafless tree, the base of which is a resting place for chunks of concrete and twisted steel supporting rods — proof that the or- phanage existed. The remainder of the physical evidence lies in a lonely file in the basement of the Detroit Public Library. A part of the Jewish Welfare Federation archives in the Burton Historical Collection, the manila folder contains thin onion-skin paper copies of correspondence about the building or the chil- dren: a report on an epidemic of chickenpox that swept through the home, a 1938 census of the in- habitants, a slim report on the home's demise. But nowhere in the file or in the field is there anything that details the pain and loneliness felt by the children who once lived within its now de- molished walls. Not one single copy bears testi- mony to the emotional scars the experience left