Close Op give me nothing. You can only get your- self out of the hell you're getting yourself into. "Jews got a hell of a nerve asking me to apologize for telling truth...They want everybody to bow down to them, and I ain't bowing down to nothing or nobody but God." Some Jews, he said, are "the most un- forgiving people if anyone offends them...Who do they think they are that I should...beg for forgiveness when they helped to bring my people into slavery and I have never heard a rabbi or Jewish organization apologize to me and my peo- ple for what they brought my people to..." Fiats to apologize have "hurt [me] deep down," professed Mr. Farrakhan, not just because he's done no wrong, he said, but because they too closely echo the slave- master relationship and the servility de- manded of blacks while in chains. Lurking behind the demands of apol- ogy — and refusals to do so — is the tat- tered tapestry of recent black-Jewish relations, with its recurring spasms of hostility and vitriol, followed by repeat- ed Band-Aids of reconciliation. And yet, despite the rhetoric and the posturing and the name-calling and the rage, Louis Farrakhan feels he must choreograph a fine line between convinc- ing Jews that he's sincerely calling for better relations — and convincing his own followers that he is still, as he says, among the few black leaders (most of whom he claims Jews have in their vest pockets) with "the strength to stand up to the Jews." His ultimate dilemma is that he's con- cluded that two little words he won't ut- ter — "I'm sorry" — stand between him and the broad acceptance and influence he seeks. Until he gets the persistent, un- relenting monkey of anti-Semitism of his back, many black leaders and personal- ities will shun him (often, he said, at their Jewish managers' insistence). He knows that until the warring halts between him and Jews — a war for which both sides blame the other — his economic self-help programs for blacks are stymied and he cannot accomplish as much as he wants to "lift my people out of the filth and the madness that they're in." Also motivating Mr. Farrakhan's bid for repaired relations with Jews is that, at age 60, as he faces his own mortality, especially after recently winning a bout with prostate cancer. He's convinced that peace with the Jewish community will help secure his legacy: "I've got grand- children. I'm not getting any younger. I want to leave something when I leave the earth." According to Mr. Farrakhan, many whites incorrectly assumed that by play- ing a violin concerto by Felix Mendelssohn, a Jewish-born composer, at a concert in North Carolina last April, he had begun a campaign to build better bridges toward Jews. But he said he did not correct the mis- conception out of his hope that music's universal language "will help us rise above the fray created by words. "I thought good would come out of this," he said, but not that the concert would give him entree to Jews. He played Mendelssohn because the piece was the first concerto he ever heard — and the last one he learned before stop- ping formal violin lessons (with a Russ- ian Jewish teacher) decades ago. For those on the frontlines of black- Jewish relations, one of the great, sim- mering questions is: What, exactly, does Louis Farrakhan want? And who, exact- ly, is Louis Farrakhan? Demon and anti-Semite? Or an unyielding, uncom- promising defender of his people and the truth? When asked point-blank whether he's anti-Semitic, Mr. Farrakhan answered, "Hell, no. If by 'anti-Semite,' you mean that I hate Jews and that I work day and night to destroy Jewish efforts and Jew- ish progress, then no. If by 'anti-Semi- te,' you mean anybody who speaks truth that offends the sensitivity and sensibil- ity of Jews in respect to Israel or Jewish involvement in the slave trade...If I'm dealing in truth, don't call me an 'anti- Semite' because I speak the same harsh BLACKS & MUSLIMS SPEAK OUT ON FARRAKHAN THE DETROI T JEWIS H N EWS LESLEY PEARL STAFF WRITER 48 do other blacks or Muslims think about Imam Abdullah El-Amin, Louis leader of the Muslim Center in Detroit— national affiliation with W. D. Muhammad, son of Eli- jah Muhammad: "Minister Farrakhan is a Muslim like I'm a Mus- lim. He has a strong feeling for the progressive ad- vancement of black people in this country. Often times, he is looked at unfairly. I don't think he is as anti-Jewish as he is portrayed to be — not in a racial sense. "His first allegiance is to his own race, as it should. be . We are all the sons of Adam, all part of the human family. But it is natural to want to see your part of the family rise up, be prosperous and reap in some bene- fits and fruits of life. I believe that is Minister Far- rakhan's motivation — to see his people eat well too. "He may come across as harsh or uncompromis- ing, but that is just his style. The goal in sight is for all people to have a good life." Desiree Cooper, freelance writer and former le- gal counsel for New Detroit "Louis Farrakhan talks about self reliance, as do the conservative Republicans, Bill Clinton and urban leaders. I can ascribe to the philosophy that when people do not have alternatives, they create their own. The message of empowerment is a universal theme. "I think the African American community sees Mr. Farrakhan differently than the community at large. Many do not see him as anti-Semitic or anti- white, but pro-African American. "Some comments Mr. Farrakhan has made have crossed the line, but I don't think they are representa- tive of all of his thinking. I'm not a Muslim. I'm not anti-Semitic. But I believe the message of power and hope Mr. Farrakhan speaks of gives him mass appeal from the fringe." A Chicago cab driver, born in Nigeria: I'm a Muslim. He isn't. I don't see him and Mal- colm X in the same company." A black bookstore clerk: "Fan-akhan hasn't helped blacks with self-empow- erment the way Elijah Muhammad did. But as for what he's saying about Jews, well, the truth is the truth." Clarence Page, a black columnist for the Chicago Tribune: "It's common in the black community for people to protect Farrakhan even if they disagree with him. The lower down in the economic brackets, the more support for him." ❑