PERSIAN GULF CRISIS EIROTHER, It's difficult enough to see your kid brother grow up, especially when he's manning an IDF tank in the Jordan Valley. AMY J. MEHLER Special to The Jewish News D iscipline. Motivation. Integrity. Profession- alism. These are the charac- teristics that mold members of Heyl Shirion, the Israeli Defense Forces' Armored Corps. For the past six months, these ideals have shaped my brother. Robbie, now 20 years old, is what's referred to in Israeli military circles as a chayal boded. Translated literally, this means he is a lonely soldier, one who has no family members living in Israel. I've often thought the IDF (Israel Defense Forces) should create a special sta- tus for families like mine: mishpachot bodedim, lonely families. THE SOLDIER As a chayal boded, my brother, now called Mati (short for Matityahu, his Hebrew name), is entitled to a free trip back to the United States and extra pay. So far, he has rejected both. "Israel is a poor army," he recently reminded my parents — Dr. George and Marian Mehler of Pikesville, Md., — as we sat in the apartment our family owns in Jerusalem. "I don't get a long enough leave to even use up my regular pay. "Believe me," he said,-" I'd rather the army use the extra cash for more tank shells." We stared at him. Almost disbelieving. And not for the first time. Robbie has had an interest in military affairs for many years, but only after he decided on making aliyah did it become this pronounced. Gone was the carefree youth from Pikesville, who liked nothing better than to hang out at the Kosher Bite or Chapps. In his place stood this seri- ous soldier — still so much a boy — with black gun oil embedded deep in his skin, staining his palms and fingers. Suddenly he was more concerned about hav- ing enough artillery than having extra money for dates, clothes or even shwarma sandwiches. During the two weeks the family recently spent together, just prior to the outbreak of the Gulf war, we drove the length and bread- th of Israel. We stayed at the Plaza Hotel in Tiberias. We luxuriated at the King Solomon Hotel in Eilat. But few moments so excited my brother as the afternoon on Jerusalem's Ben Yehuda Street when we bought him a new pair of army boots. Robbie balked at the price, about $80. But when he tried them on, we knew he was in heaven. He was my kid brother, and I used to take him shopping for sneakers. But I'd never seen him carry on like this. Not even when buying a new pair of the latest Nike high tops. "So light," he marveled as he pumped his legs. I could see he was trying to include us in his obvious enthusi- asm. "Just feel these treads," he gushed. vested virtually all of its po- litical capital in promoting a settlement with the Palesti- nians on the basis of mutual trust and respect. That hope, except among the most op- timistic or masochistic, has now largely dissipated. Amos Oz, one of Israel's leading authors and peace activists, conceded that he had suffered a "serious set- back" as a result of the PLO's endorsement of Saddam Hussein: "I think the endorsement is abomi- nable and unforgivable," he told a press conference in Tel Aviv last week. While continuing to ad- vocate self-determination for the Palestinians, he ad- mitted that "it is a harsh blow to the very painful at- tempt we have been making to change the trends in Israeli public opinion." He was also sharply critical of peace activists in the United States and Europe who were campaign- ing against the war with Iraq. He explained that "whereas some members of the peace movement in other countries simply stand against war, I do not stand against war. I stand against aggression." ❑ Robbie Mehler on the day of his induction. Two Steps Continued from preceding page allies, have become the pariahs of the West. The latest, perhaps final, blow came last week with the revelation by American intelligence sources that Iraq had, in a secret message to PLO headquarters in Tunis, instructed the Pales- tinians to launch a terror campaign against alliance targets throughout the world. "We trusted them and we fought for them," noted one bitter Western diplomat in Tel Aviv last week. No single group, however, feels more betrayed than the Israeli Left, which had in- In July, when my brother and hundreds of other recruits arrived at Bakum, the IDF's central induction center outside Tel Aviv, they were issued rifles and two sets of uniforms — one for combat and one for dress. Everyone received a pair of boots. The pair Robbie was issued were the wrong size. "You just don't walk up to a commanding officer, on your first day, with your gun slung over one shoulder, and complain that your boots don't fit," he said. Consequently, my brother and others swapped or stuff- ed their boots with layers of heavy, woolen socks so they would fit. Robbie showed us the spe- cial way soldiers are in- structed to lace their boots. They do it in such a way that the laces aren't criss-crossed. This is so medics and other military personnel may slice boots off more easily in case of foot or leg wounds. "Very often," Robbie said, "the only thing left are a soldiers' boots." The thought was frighten- ing. But so was the knowl- edge that several flame resistant identification tags have been sewn into his uniform in case the unspeakable happens. Somehow, my family has accepted this. We've come to understand the true nature of war, and Robbie's corn- mitment to Israel. Before making aliyah last February, my brother was like other American Jewish teenagers. After nine years at Baltimore's Talmudical Academy, he completed high school at the Hebrew Acad- emy of Greater Washington in Silver Springs. He was planning for col- lege and had a dizzying so- cial calendar. He had his own car. But then, soon after finishing high school, he moved to Israel, which is something he had been thinking about for a few years. Now, he mans a tank in the Jordan Valley. Before Shabbat, I accom- panied Robbie to Jerusalem's Bikkur Cholim Hospital on Strauss Street. He said he needed to pick up some intravenous solution bags, into which he would staff supplies. Once the edges of the bags are sealed with a flame, they're protected against moisture and chemical agents. Robbie acted as if this was no big deal. Every soldier prepared in the same way, he said. Maybe so. But when we left Israel, prior to the out- break of the Gulf war, our closest friends were ready- ing gas masks and provi- sions and sealing rooms with masking tape and nylon cur- tains. I saw no panic in the streets or in the faces of my friends and brother the day I left. As my mother noted, neither Robbie or our friends suffer from Rambo com- plexes. But they do exist with a heavy air of resigna- tion that is part and parcel of what, for the moment, life is like in Israel. ❑ 16 FRIDAY, FEBRUARY 8, 1991