CELEBRATING OUR 53RD YEAR SIM AMADEUS UAIFIUL)/ OF DETROIT... cigarette, she adds, "None of my books whitewash the truth. They expose feelings, fears, torture . . . the cruelty of war." Ben-Yehuda is marked by a common guilt; the guilt of the living. But during the years of the ragtag army, when Palmach fighters were lucky to have one hot meal a week and usually survived on half an egg, one sardine, and a couple of pieces of bread a day, it was this guilt that motivated her to continue fighting. I (' But as much as she was part of the fight for a Jewish state, she also had an out- sider's view of the battlefield. Always a loner and non- conformist, she was not ideologically a Palmach member. She remembers, "I envied them in a way. They had such camaraderie. They did everything together .. . even dressed alike. And it was this espirit de corps that gave them their strength." She was set even further apart as one of the few women to continue fighting after others had been removed from combat positions. Ruffl- ing through parched and yellowed newspaper clippings from the 1940s, she remarks that subordinates often disliked taking orders from a women and that superiors were overly critical: "A woman has to constantly pro- ve herself and be prepared to be blamed for whatever goes wrong. This is too much of a handicap to go into battle with." Ben-Yehuda did, however, have a notorious reputation with the enemy. The Syrians called her the "Blond Devil," a name by which she is still affectionately known in Israel, and offered a reward for her capture. The Arab ar- mies were shocked and in- censed to be confronted by a woman on the battlefield. Ben-Yehuda says, "To be kill- ed by a Jewish woman was too humiliating. The sight of me on the battlefield increas- ed their rage." Now, as she looks back over the years at Israel's many wars, she sees the struggle for independence as the worst of all Israel's battles. "You can't imagine the uncertainty of those years," she says. But remembering the suc- cess, a smile crosses the still- youthful face and she says, "We knew we were making history, but most of all, what kept us going was the knowledge that after 2,000 years we were going to have a state of our own." ❑ World Zionist Press Service WISH ALL THEIR CUSTOMERS, EMPLOYEES, DISTRIBUTORS & SUPPLIERS ti.,M-ItNA SIEWAUDIDIUIVS REMEMBERING YOUR HEALTH AND HERITAGE WITH EUROPEAN STYLE BREAD AND ROLLS, MADE WITH NATURAL INGREDIENTS AND PRESERVATIVE FREE SERVING THE METROPOLITAN DETROIT AREA SUPERMARKETS, DELI'S & RESTAURANTS 31Q13-41-11SIG JANET RANDOLPH, MOE SELL & STAFF WISH ALL OF OUR FRIENDS 'A HAPPY & HEALTHY NEW YEAR" book comens first center building • suite 115 26955 northwestern highway southfield, michigan 48034 phone: 313 / 262-1560 MARSHALL STERN PHOTOGRAPHY HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM THE STERNS Marshall & Jill Seth, Edward & Scott 1 OR 11111 41 ■ 661-8286 THE DETROIT JEWISH NEWS 79