4 sA Grandpa's Cane A Symbol Of Strength And Respect S By Ruth Zimmerman His grandpa was a very old man. Maybe 80 or 90 or 100, David wasn't sure. But his back was as bent as the handle of a teacup, and his eyes were soft and watery and pink. His hair, where it stragged out from beneath his hat, was yellowish and dry. David's grandfather seemed always to wear a hat — at home, on the street, in restaurants or visiting — a black furry felt, which hung low over his forehead and ears. And he always held a cane, whether he was sitting in front of the house or shuffling tiredly up Broadway for his exercise. It was a handsome cane, ebony, with ivory set into the crook and a gleaming silver disk on the shaft which read, "To Mayer, on his 50th birthday, from the many who love him well. David had never inquired too deeply into the history of the cane. It was just a part of Grandpa, like his hat or his old black suit or his voice, shaky but low and deep. are Jewish thoughts. And this is his tongue." David did not understand. He didn't like the idea of Grandpa's black felt hat. He didn't like the idea of Grandpa's not speaking English. And he was ashamed of Grandpa in front of his friends. He didn't even want to bring his friends home with him from school. He knew that Grandpa would be sitting in front of the door, leaning on his ebony cane, his pale eyes fastened on the pavement. Grandpa would look up and smile and hold out his hand. "Ah ha, yingele." David would touch Grandpa's hand with the tips of his fingers and glance at his friends. Grandpa's smile would fade. The light which Grandpa spoke hardly any English. A few words here and there, but not for a moment had brightened the misty eyes would die. so that David could talk with him. "Ah ha, yingele," he would say Sometimes David could hear his mother and father speaking softly to in another tone of voice. Then, "Nu nu." He would shake his head each other and saying how strange slowly and reach in his pocket for a it was that Grandpa had lived in quarter or a 50-cent piece. America for 50 years and couldn't ' "Nem, nem. Take, take." As learn the langauge. David would interrupt rudely and say, "Well, why though the money could pay David for his embarrassment. can't he, that's what I'd like to It got so that David stopped know?" bringing his friends home altogether. But David's mother would look Once when he was walking on gently across the room at her old Broadway with the boys, they father-in-law and pat David's hand started to yell, "Old goat, old goat." and say, "It doesn't matter, David. Someday you will understand that it David glanced up and it was doesn't matter. He has lived here for Grandpa shuffling ahead of them, with his head bent low, and his 50 years, but in his own world — yellowish hair straggling across his with his own friends and his own collar. Grandpa didn't hear them or work and his own thoughts. They tSk e t L 6 - SO4 , ; FRIDAY, OCTOBER 28, 1988 "Does it hurt, Grandpa? Did you hurt yourself?" But Grandpa only moaned and said "oi." David looked around wildly, not knowing what to do. There was no one on the street to help him, and he was afraid to leave Grandpa alone. "Mama, mama," David screamed again and again and again. It seemed a very long time before David's mother threw up the window, looked out and came hurrying down. Between the two of them they were able to hoist Grandpa up the stoop and into the elevator. Upstairs, they took off his coat and hat and put him gently to bed. "Mein schtecken," the old man moaned. "Vie is mein schtecken?" His cane! Where was his cane? David rushed downstairs. The cane lay on the street, broken nearly in two. When the doctor came, he said see them. David giggled because that no bones had been broken, nor he felt he-had to, and as though the had there been any physical injury old man were a stranger to him. to Grandpa, aside from a bruise or One evening, about 5 o'clock, two. But the shock of a fall to such David was coming home from the a very old man might be serious. park. As he reached the corner of Grandpa was to stay in bed until it his street, his grandfather was just was sure that his old heart would going up the little stoop of their bear the strain. house, leaning heavily on his cane. For many days Grandpa lay in Suddenly David saw him stumble. bed, a small white bundle between For an instant he tottered, grasping the white sheets. He was so weak vainly for support and then he fell that he had to be fed, like a baby, down the three steps to the heavily - and his wrinkled hands trembled on sidewalk. David ran. the coverlet. He kept the two pieces of the cane on a chair by his Suddenly, David saw him bedside, and every now and then he reached out to stroke then. stumble. For an instant, And from everywhere in the he tottered, grasping city, as though the word of his vainly for support and illness had been carried by the then he fell heavily down wind, came visitors — men and the three steps to the women, all bent with age, misty- sidewalk. eyed, and gray. They congregated quietly around his bed and watched lest his heart give in. There were "Oi, oi," his Grandpa moaned, some who would not leave even as he lay on the pavement, his coat through the night, but sat nodding all hunched around him, his hat in the darkness by the bed. They blown off, and his hair falling across brought him chicken soup and his eyes. home-made cakes and jams and David knelled beside his bottles of grape wine. They read the grandfather. First he brushed back Yiddish papers to him and washed the old man's hair. Then he picked him and changed his sheets. As up the hat and put it on his head, leaves enfold a frail young flower, so as though afraid that someone did the little gray people enfold their might see him not properly clothed. old friend in tenderness. Then he put his arm around him David watched. And as he and tried to get him up. But his watched, he wondered — wondered Grandpa was limp and too heavy for how wonderful must be his Grandpa David to lift. to be so precious to his friends. "Oi, oi," Grandpa moaned. O