FOCUS In self-imposed exile, Menachem Begin has ventured beyond his Jerusalem apartment only nine times in the past four years. GLENN FRANKEL Special to The Jewish News erusalem — He came out again last month to make his annual visit to the grave. He trekked up the hillside on a dirt path under graying skies, recited the kad- dish and scattered a fistful of pebbles. Then he walked down to the waiting car to be whisked back to the safety and isolation of his apart- ment, 15 minutes away. The usual crowd was there, several dozen well-wishers, former comrades, government officials, old friends, relatives. He accepted their greetings, nodded occasionally, but shook hands with no one. He was dressed in a dark blue suit with a crisp white shirt and a striped tie. A black fedora shaded his eyes and hid his expression from the cameras and the col- leagues. His skin was pale yellow, the color of flesh that seldom sees the sun. There were blotchy, red razor scrapes on his thin cheeks. His eyes looked hollow. He stood unaided at the grave site, but his two daughters took his arms to help him make the slow walk up and down the hill. In an hour it was over. The Peugeot carried him back to 1 Zemach St. The crowd —the solemn disciples, the tight- lipped plainclothesmen, the voracious Israeli photog- raphers jockeying for a last shot — drifted off. Menachem Begin's yearly pilgrimage to the grave of Aliza, his wife of 43 years, was over. But not his mourning. It has been five years since Aliza died, 5 1/2 years since the invasion of Lebanon, four years since he told his col- leagues, "I cannot go on." Stepping down as prime minister, he retreated to the splendid isolation of the residence where he has lived ever since in a self-imposed exile of shadows and mem- ories, the prisoner of Zemach Street. The day before Begin's cem- etery visit, Israelis marked another significant event in their recent history. It was the 10th anniversary of the late Anwar Sadat's epoch- j making trip to Jerusalem. There were speeches and din- ners and symposiums, sober reflections laced with bit- tersweet nostalgia, a longing for the days of big men and bold rhetoric. Menachem Begin was one of those men, a crucial if recalcitrant par- ticipant in the passion and the glory of Camp David. Yet his name seldom came up in the observances. When they did mention it, Israelis spoke of Begin as they spoke of Sadat: in the past tense. Yet Menachem Begin lives. The former prime minister reads the newspapers every morning, answers the phone, sees relatives and, on occa- sion, old friends. His secretary says he has ven- tured outside his well-kept apartment in Jerusalem's western suburbs exactly nine times in the past four years — four times to visit Aliza's grave, five for treat- ment by his personal physi- cian at a nearby hospital. His exile is a distinctly Israeli tragedy linked to a war that still haunts the nation. The 1982 Lebanon invasion, his proud crusade, became a quagmire in which more than 600 Israelis died, and Israel's reputation was dragged through the mud of Sabra and Shatila, the refugee camps where hundreds of Palestinians died at the hands of Christian militiamen while Israeli soldiers stood by. Begin, it is said, feels responsible. Many here blame Begin's defense minister, Ariel Sharon, for deceiving the old man — indeed, the entire Cabinet — into believing Israeli forces would halt at a prearranged point 25 miles north of the border, when in fact Sharon had always planned to push all the way to Beirut. In a three-hour stream-of-consciousness lec- ture before a 'Ibl Aviv au- dience last summer, Sharon denied all the charges that have been festering for five years and presented his own history of the invasion and its consequences. Despite the urgings of several friends, Begin chose not to challenge Sharon's ac- count. In fact, friends say, On one of his rare public appearances, former Prime Minister Menachem Begin visits the grave of his wife, Aliza, who died in 1982. Prisoner Zemach Street THE DETROIT JEWISH NEWS 81